Chicago to visit with her feminine friends and do some shopping. On a recent return trip from Chicago, Fran became a lady in distress by running out of gas. Thank goodness there are gentlemen in this world, because one came along and took care of everything. Fran stood by in a la dylike manner while the man put gas in her car; she thanked him for helping her and continued on her way home. Another wonderful thrill for Fran is to attend church on Sundays. With a perkie little hat or a silk scarf on her lovely light brown tresses she joins the Sun- day parade of ladies who show off their newest dresses. On one such occasion Fran found herself sitting next to her older brother who thought she was just another wom- an. After she composed herself she noticed how interest ed her brother seemed in her nylon clad knees, so with the impishness of her feminine ego she enjoyed teasing him with a slight tug on her hemline. She couldn't help but wonder what his reaction would have been if he knew the girl sitting next to him was also his younger brother. How different my life is today than in the past. I have not only learned to express my feminine desires, but also to take my place in a man's world. Each year I do my share for society by working on several commu- ity projects. For the past three years I have been nomin ated for the Distinguished Service Award which goes to the outstanding young man of the year in my community, My attitude toward the transvestic desires in my heart has changed completely, allowing me to rid myself of guilt and fear. Quite recently I told a good friend all about my desire to dress as a woman and explained the tremendous relief I have found by being able to express myself freely. His reaction was wonderful. He not only wanted to know all about TVism, but wanted to meet Fran in person. Since he knew my masculine half very well, he was naturally surprised to find an entirely diff- erent personality in Fran. The first thing my friend suggested was to have a date with Fran which turned out to be a wonderful experience for both of us. In the past few weeks my friend has proved how wonderfully under- standing a non- TV can be. On our dates he treats me with respect and dignity.

In payment for the help that I have been fortunate to receive, I hope that I can in turn help others. I believe the first step to gaining acceptance by others

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